My pendulum swings back and forth

I just wanted to write something, I just feel writing about anything. I don't have any idea or any topic at this moment. I have so many things to do but, I feel the urge inside me to write. These days I didn't receive any personal emails. I admit I was and (still) am not friendly. Accepting a one's waterloo is not easy. Anyway, to voice out what I wanted to say..err write I am admitting. I think I am getting insane if I am not writing this piece. I created a blog for me to 'burst out' what I have in my pendulum...err mind at the moment. What keep my little mind busy..not much like a dumb terminal. I have to 'point out' which is 'neuron' is not functioning at the moment. Maybe that nueron is focusing to the least important thing at the moment. My nuerons must unanimously focus to one goal.